Dreams and Other Monday Stuff

January 14, 2008 at 5:16 pm 16 comments

Pap has fallen into the habit of leaving the radio on when he goes to bed.  It drives me crazy, but if I turn it off when I lay down, he startles awake. With his wonky heart, that scares the hell out of me.  So I’ve learned to sleep with a constant stream of 60’s, 70’s and a smattering of 50’s music in the background.  The worst part isn’t that the music doesn’t rank in my top ten of play choices.  The worst part is that this old music makes me dream of childhood.  Some nights I get to relive the good times – best vacations, birthday parties, accomplishments.  Most nights I hover over my younger self watching the failures,  aching to scream at her “NO, take that other path!”  We’ve played the “would you do it all over again” game for years in my family.  I’ve always said no, I wouldn’t, even if I could go back knowing what I know now.  There were too many bad choices that eventually led to good consequences to take the risk of changing anything. 

If I owned a book store, I would always have an author roaming around pitching their book.  But I don’t, I have a blog.  Luckily, that’s very nearly as good in this day and age so next week, on Tuesday,  Author Dana Fredsti  will be here guest blogging in celebration of the publication of her book:  Murder For Hire, The Peruvian Pigeon.   More about this and links later this week. 

The table in my home office is stacked with the classified sections of this weekends newspapers, my resume has been overhauled (again) and I actually remembered to buy stamps.  In between finishing up work at the day job, editing, writing and preparing for my writer’s meeting next week – I’ll continue my hunt for a new soul sucking day job.  I really need to adjust my attitude. 

Princess has gone back to college and managed to draw the toughest, most critical professor of English for her composition class.  We got an A on our first paper.  Pffftt… on reputations. 


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16 Comments Add your own

  • 1. LauraJ  |  January 14, 2008 at 6:20 pm

    We got an A?? Hmmm…. 😀 It’s nice to have smart parents!

  • 2. Mr. Fabulous  |  January 14, 2008 at 9:11 pm

    I am looking forward to the book tour!

  • 3. Diesel  |  January 14, 2008 at 9:17 pm

    “There were too many bad choices that eventually led to good consequences to take the risk of changing anything.”

    I’ve had that same thought many times.

  • 4. Nessa  |  January 15, 2008 at 2:49 am

    The “What If’s” are not a good game to play.

    Congrats on your (joint) “A”.

    I think the book tour will be fun, too.

  • 5. Barb  |  January 15, 2008 at 4:36 am

    Good Morning My Friend.
    you have to learn to be sneaky, with Pap and his music.
    As he retires each evening many hours before you do.
    Each time you get up for a Diet Pepsie or a ciggie, go into your bedroom and turn the volumne down just a little, not enough for him to notice, and by the time you do this several times, each evening, you may be able to turn it almost off, by the time it is your bed time. LOL
    Otherwise get the family to buy him an IPod where he can recored and listen to his favourite music without disturbing. You.

    Luv Ya.

  • 6. John Linna  |  January 15, 2008 at 5:02 am

    Good luck on your job search. I hope you not only find a job but one you will enjoy.

  • 7. QuillDancer  |  January 15, 2008 at 9:22 am

    I, too, would never go back. If I undo all those years in an abusive marriage, I give up my strength and determination. I lose much of my compassion. I no longer have a college education. AND, what if my “instead” choices leads to something even worse?

  • 8. zhadi  |  January 15, 2008 at 10:32 am

    Oh, those ‘what if’ mind games are soul-crushing if you let ’em suck you in… I still play them sometimes at 3am when i can’t sleep…but overall, I would never go back! here’s to our futures and all the good decisions based on choices and/or mistakes we’ve made in our past.

  • 9. Dave M  |  January 15, 2008 at 12:43 pm

    Good to read that you and Pap are back together, did I miss that post?
    Its great how music can transport you back in time. If I knew then and what I know now, would I change anything is always a good game isnt it. Well I always end up thinking well we cant change anything so get on with it. The only thing you can change is yourself and the by your actions, the future.

  • 10. Delmonti (Dave)  |  January 15, 2008 at 3:17 pm

    I need the radio on to fall asleep to (I have it on sleep mode for 60 mins). In recent weeks I’ve retuned from a talk station to a Jazz station….. and I dont get along with Jazz at all but I’m fascinated by it’s apparent obtuse angles of direction. THis has led to some marked change in my dream patterns, mostly I cant remember them, but occasionally, I remember them being disjointed and dark…… I just hope it isnt a hint of depression.

    The job thing: take every interview as a “test”, That way you dont get nervous and your mind is set on making things better.

    GOing Back: hell yes.

  • 11. katcampbell  |  January 15, 2008 at 4:34 pm

    Laura J – Glad you caught that!
    Mr. Fab – Me too! Good practice for when I’m hosting your blog tour.
    Diesel – Yup, what if in a do-over I lost a kid. Not worth the risk.
    Nessa – Thanks! Luckily her chosen career doesn’t require a lot of creative writing.
    Barb! You’re a genius! I’ll try that….
    Thank you Dr. John. If I stop being such a cry baby I think I will find a job I find interesting.
    Quilly – Better the devil we know.
    Dana – To the future!
    Dave M – Don’t feel left out, sometimes I look at Pap and say “when did we get back together?”

    Dave – You even try sleeping to Jazz? Every interview as a “test”? Somehow that makes it sound even more intimidating!

  • 12. hammer  |  January 16, 2008 at 3:02 am

    Yep backround noise makes for some really odd and or disturbing dreams.

  • 13. hayden  |  January 16, 2008 at 3:19 am

    Humm, yeh, I don’t think an interview as a test would work for me, either. What does seem to work well is to use an individual interview as a “practice one.” If I blow off wanting the job (doesn’t matter what crazy ass story I tell myself!) then I’m very relaxed and objective. And if you give off the vibes that you are interviewing them, too, they seem to want you more! Once I’ve done the interview I’m ok to “keep my mind open” to finding out if this is a good one – but wanting it too much doesn’t work well for me.

  • 14. stacy  |  January 16, 2008 at 6:08 pm

    Good for Princess! I always signed up with the toughest English/journalism profs on purpose. If I could make it their classes then I knew I’d be okay.

  • 15. aboyfromindia  |  January 16, 2008 at 8:59 pm

    Nice blog u have there..
    Visit me sometime at.. http://aboyfromindia.wordpress.com

  • 16. frothingatlemouse  |  January 19, 2008 at 7:14 am

    Oh, it’s weird how sounds will totally paint what we’re doing, asleep or awake. Wow.
    Congrats on the A for her!


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